night walk

when you walk the lonely roads at night,
when the stars are shining bright,
and all's quiet except the sound of crickets;
as you wait aside the traffic lights
and watch the cars past you by,
what do you think? what goes through your mind?

tonight i decided to take a slow stroll with a lot of detours home from eunos interchange. it being the eve of mid-autumn after all, thought perhaps the moon would be round and pretty. i thought about so many things, one after another..they were really racing through my mind. okay maybe not racing. oh and i met jeremy he at the station. he was from my btc group- the one who hated rj and wanted to be a farmer. haha. he's in vj now. chatted for a bit. i like meeting old friends...
xxx
in life we constantly make new friends and leave the old,
by circumstance, by choice,
people walk in and out of our lives.
like zooming cars on the roads
like floating clouds up high.
forever is a mirage;
parting is a common affair
this we all have to learn to deal with, and to realise
what matter's most
is they remain in our hearts.
xxx
i hate having to make choices
but what's worse,
is to regret having made them.
xxx
ocassionally i feel this need to hide,
or to run to a faraway place
where no one can find me
just me, myself and i.
i despise the coward in me.
xxx
discontent-
something we must all learn to rid from our lives.
i'm still trying.
xxx
这条漫无目的的路很长，
越走越累。
自己却无所长，
有时还真觉得窝囊。
内心无奈的呐喊
没有人听得见。
表面上屹立不到，
心里却是脆弱的不可以。
经不起一点小雨，
雷电交加更是粉碎；
有时，自己不爽就算，
还整天让他人心伤。
最不想让人失望，
却一直这样。
总是质疑，问题到底出在哪里？
其实也知道，
问题在于自己。
xxx
经常在想，
别人眼中的我，心里的我
是怎么样一个人？
xxx
to those i have unintentionally hurt,
(i think there are plenty)
i'm sorry.
xxx
what an emotional post. DISGUSTING.
what is life for, actually?
(urhhh no suicide inclinations whatsoever haha)