my mother

Sumiko Tan's column on last Sunday's (23/09) Lifestyle was quite an insightful read. she wrote about her relationship with her mother.

and many parts of it seemed similar to my relationship with my mother. 'we exercise together, have lunch together, and go on holidays together.' and so on. perhaps except when she said 'if there's one relationship i've never had problems with, it's the one i share with my mother'.

i wouldn't say that's true of ma and me. we argue with each other alot, our disagreements are aplenty. perhaps cos we're both as headstrong, no points for guessing who i got that trait from. but ma remains the most important person in my life and will always be.

it probably isn't uncommon for teenagers like me to have drifted slightly from their parents. it's the 'leaving the nest and growing to be independent' kind of thing. but somehow for me, it's like i'm growing closer to ma as we both grow older. she's changed alot too. from the kiasu competitive singaporean mother to one who's constantly reminding me to take breaks, dragging me out for big meals admist the prelims, and even boldly suggesting that we go for a holiday in HK just before the As (but ma i'm not so courageous lol). and though we're 3 decades apart, it feels like we can talk about anything under the sun. not that we have similar takes on all issues, though. and not that i'm into what she's into, like investing in properties, for example. Sumiko Tan puts it well: i still park myself next to her just to chat about nothing.

i feel she's like a best friend, really. and a role model, kinda. i've always thought her life and the success she has achieved now can be likened to a well-fought battle and the sweet rewards thereafter.

i love mommy dearest. and i want her to be happy! :D

here's a long one

so the prelims have come and gone. they didn't really "fly by", as much as i willed myself to believe they would. but life isn't gonna be any more exciting just yet, with it being a mere 38 days from the As. ohwell, we don't really have a choice.

the past 2 days had been...messy. yesterday started out okay (actually it started out with econs tuition but whatever, it's good to maintain the momentum). went cycling at ubin! i think i've improved alot, though uhhh i still shudder at the sight of downslopes and huge crowds ahead. and it was mainly off-trail, so good practice for noobish me. chek jawa was pretty disappointing though, couldn't see anything from the boardwalk, though i believe it's definitely a whole new world beneath where we were...a whole new world not to be disturbed, i guess(:

pulau ubin is a nice simple place. but somehow it interests me more than the glaring citylights in mainland singapore. just that day i was telling mom, how i don't really feel like most (read: not all) girls my age. i really can do without pretty accessories, retail therapy, makeovers and the like. recently i've even come to avoid using the computer and going online. ahwell. maybe i'm weird. or boring. or an old lady hidden beneath a teenager's facade. whatever.

well so yesterday was pretty nice until. mainly it started to turn into a nightmare cos i reached home and emptied my bag and the camera was not insight. my lumix FX10 that i saved so long and got for such a good bargain! my tears started flowing before i knew it and soon i was a wreck. and the 300+ pictures (i'm gonna upload every single picture like regularly from now on).

called ubin police post, they said they'd check it out. wanted to make a report but the NPC closed at 10pm. i ran and reached there at 10.10pm. ohwell. perfect timing, they call it. i couldn't sleep for a long time yesterday.

this morning while having breakfast at werner's with mom the police called me! they found it! gosh i felt really really grateful and lucky. and thanks gina(: (who happened to be going there today, so she collected it for me)

so today was a pretty good, relaxing, time-with-family day. been so long since i had lunch with them on a sunday afternoon. ahwell. oh yeah and i think i consumed 5000 calories today. but i feel happy heh(:

i just don't understand how people can stand to give up food, of all things. people who starve themselves are losing out on too much! literally too, of course. hurts to see friends do that. i remember, though i don't wanna be reminded of, my one-sandwich-per-day times back in rg. and scrutinizing the nutritional facts column of every single food item. how tiring and silly and foolish. so many more things matter, than just the numbers on your scale. i'm glad i realised that. and my personal take: skinny is NOT hot.

and recently the heat's on CUPCAKES! but personally i think they just look pretty, since i'm not like yi xuan who adores icing. but really feel like follwing the trend and order some cupcakes from those online shopfronts. low barriers of entry, yo. maybe i also can set up a 'shop'. ohhh and i just realised that Cupcake Momma's cupcakes can be collected from kembangan mrt! thats 5 minutes from home haha so exciting.

Other pretty creations:
Room For Dessert
CCUP
The Patissier
Cheryl Shuen
Pateli's Crave