哈罗。

something has gotten to me today. have been acting silly, earlier on i switched off my wireless button unknowingly (i don't know how) and started panicking frantically when i couldn't get the network. then just now i thought blogger deleted my account when i couldn't sign in cos i used my blog name instead of my username. and not to mention yesterday i ran in the rain from the bus stop to thomson. and it was heavy pouring rain not light drizzle rain.

bah ok enough of stupidity. today is the last of schooling day of 2006! but i decided to stay at home. haha. was very tempted to watch 恶魔在身边 but i was disciplined and practised for op instead. a lvls la don't playplay. plus my group comprises 4 guys the powerhouses so i pale in comparison. i want my 1! hm but i must say (my crazey) projectwork (group) added much colour to my school life in rj this year. and i'm impressed with myself for having been able to withstand those 4 siaokias.

post-promos have been fun, leisurely, exciting, happening, reflective,.. quite a bit of everything. the more interesting things that happened in the past 3-4 weeks or so, would include:
(1) going to the airport and watching planes fly and deciding that in the future i would be a (someone) that can fly here there everywhere(:
(2) fretting about being ambition-less (still am! HOW??)
(3) going to the airport 4 times in 3 weeks.
(4) going running, swimming, climbing and running again all in one day and realising that isn't a very wise idea
(5) befrienders dance with yi xuan! (:
(6) sentosa! although all the attractions were too pricey to visit and i refuse to be cheated unlike those tourists
(7) vivocity twice in 2 weeks. and it really is pretty cool. numerous homongous shops and enough space to not let me feel claustrophobic. and i mean, cmon it houses the flagship store of CANDY EMPIRE which is easily my favouritiest shop on earth.
(8) shopping, splurging. ok not very interesting but i discovered a pretty cool shop at ps, outfitters girls. and they are having a sale so gogoGO!
(9) midautumn festival with my brother and biaojie. it really felt like the good ole times again when we still could do foolish silly things and laugh at ourselves.
(10) ponning chem to go for kbox and rushing back when our time wasn't up cos we had incurred the wrath of
(11) class bbq and learning journey. whoaaa. hide&seek, climbing to the roof, stupid silly censored things the guys did, songsinging (ok for me tunehumming) all night in the LT, on the bus. and giving up sleep to gossip talk. for once i felt a tinge of class spirit in us. honestly i think my classmates are all very fun it's unfortunate that we have to be so fragmented as a class. anyhow, it was quite an unforgettable day. people who ponned you missed out hoho
... and i can't remember anything else. and before we start feeling bored, yi xuan, jean and i have also gone to apply for part-time waitressing at Oscars, Conrad. decided to try something different after having to stand 10 hours daily last year. plus now i have friends with me! but there are manymany days i have to block out (stupid as attachment GAH) i hope they still let me work! and have to think of a way to convince ma to let me do the nightshifts too. hmmm. ok so much blabbering. ahh youtube's almost done with my song. i think after watching so much of 恶魔在身边 i'm behaving silly too. haha.

你怎么可以这样对待自己的手？
弹吉他的手，打篮球的手，做模型的手，牵着我的手-

guardian angel*

i found it i found it! i meant, this
会有天使替我爱你
worth a read if you guys can take the.. chinese. haha. so sweeeeeeeet(:

night walk

when you walk the lonely roads at night,
when the stars are shining bright,
and all's quiet except the sound of crickets;
as you wait aside the traffic lights
and watch the cars past you by,
what do you think? what goes through your mind?

tonight i decided to take a slow stroll with a lot of detours home from eunos interchange. it being the eve of mid-autumn after all, thought perhaps the moon would be round and pretty. i thought about so many things, one after another..they were really racing through my mind. okay maybe not racing. oh and i met jeremy he at the station. he was from my btc group- the one who hated rj and wanted to be a farmer. haha. he's in vj now. chatted for a bit. i like meeting old friends...
xxx
in life we constantly make new friends and leave the old,
by circumstance, by choice,
people walk in and out of our lives.
like zooming cars on the roads
like floating clouds up high.
forever is a mirage;
parting is a common affair
this we all have to learn to deal with, and to realise
what matter's most
is they remain in our hearts.
xxx
i hate having to make choices
but what's worse,
is to regret having made them.
xxx
ocassionally i feel this need to hide,
or to run to a faraway place
where no one can find me
just me, myself and i.
i despise the coward in me.
xxx
discontent-
something we must all learn to rid from our lives.
i'm still trying.
xxx
这条漫无目的的路很长，
越走越累。
自己却无所长，
有时还真觉得窝囊。
内心无奈的呐喊
没有人听得见。
表面上屹立不到，
心里却是脆弱的不可以。
经不起一点小雨，
雷电交加更是粉碎；
有时，自己不爽就算，
还整天让他人心伤。
最不想让人失望，
却一直这样。
总是质疑，问题到底出在哪里？
其实也知道，
问题在于自己。
xxx
经常在想，
别人眼中的我，心里的我
是怎么样一个人？
xxx
to those i have unintentionally hurt,
(i think there are plenty)
i'm sorry.
xxx
what an emotional post. DISGUSTING.
what is life for, actually?
(urhhh no suicide inclinations whatsoever haha)

WHOA

tell you something..
THE PROMOS ARE OVER!

yay. waaah yixuan and i were totally delerious when the bio paper ended! and at the council area the odacians just went mad as usual..
speaking of which. bunch of them are in school now preparing for the outdoor buffet. which i'm totally not involved in. hmm quite sad. i thought about it and realised this is probably the first odac event i'm missing out on. haha sigh but hope they have fun and hope associate exp will be a success! (:
but then again, whilst missing out on that, i'm gonna have helluva good time too! maaan. we've been waiting for this day for so long. c'mon guys
the funnnnn starts NOWWW
heh shopped with mom at bugis today. shopped till we dropped. retail therapy feels so good! kbox with my girlfriends tomorrow, can't wait(: and MIGHT be going climbing on wednesday.
eh actually i started feeling relaxed after the chem paper already. (with the exception of yesterday when for some reason i started feeling extremely stressed again because i realised that i totally misplanned my schedule for studying bio, ended up not being able to finish everything, BUT WHATEVER). caught a movie on thursday, OHOH AND WE WATCHED FORBIDDEN CITY ON SATURDAY.
with hui, wanchee, yihui. we caught the finale how cool is that. and the programmes were going at like $2.. uhh i suspect they were originally priced at like, $15? but anyhow. i really liked the musical. acting was good. i liked the empress.. she really moved me at some points. and the singing.. kit chan is really power. gosh i was really really.. overwhelmed. and the musical numbers were good too. (comprehensible, at least). oh and hahaha hossan leong and sebastian tan sure added comic relief! pangu haha so cute(: overall i'd give it uhh manymany thumbs up. well i guess for a show that could be staged a total of 3 times thus far.. it'd definitely be good. totally worth my bio (i think) and 100+ bucks.
heh musicals are so my thing. except when we factor in the cost.. sigh. think i have watched 5 theatre musicals so far. mamma mia (with rng), les miserables (in UK!!!!), the sound of music (with bro), westside story (with huixian) and forbidden city. I LOVE(:
okay i shall uh. go do sit-ups now. haha. happy holidays guys